Who and where am I?

I've been thinking about who I am. In people's eyes, I'm a source of inspiration, a positive, bubbly person, someone who has great integrity. In other people's eyes, I'm loved and emulate a great role model. So what's wrong with this picture???? I can't see a lot of these characteristics in myself and it has lead to a few twist and turns down my journey. Last semester, it was supposed to be my last semester of student teacher. It could of been another milestone in my life, but things don't always go as plan. I started to shrink and these characteristics disappeared one by one through my teaching. When I started to realize that passing the semester wasn't going to be in the picture, I felt ashamed, disappointed of myself. I knew I could do better and I had no one to blame but myself. In fact, everyone in my life knew I could do it. But at that point, it was just difficult to fix and I made a choice. I decided that I was not ready and wanted to stick around to develop more. My choice really revolves around my nieces and nephew. I thought, "If I met their teacher and they were teaching the way I was, I would not approve." I could of just given up to find a new career, but I know teaching is what I am supposed to do. So........ after a long winter break that involved rediscovering who I am, I'm now redoing my student teaching. I'm excited to show the third graders who Miss Tran really is!